That's an interesting way to talk about one's virginity. There's no equivalent expression in French, so I find it a bit amusing !
When I recalled the event, I think I didn't really explain what made me decide to lose my virginity. I suppose its because it is not something that had really been mind-bogging me (which even surprises me!).
I believe the usual thinking is either :
- someone who really wants to wait for THE right person to do it
or
- someone who just wants to do it as soon as possible.
In both cases, it seems to be a really big "event".
Somehow, it really didn't seem that big to me... I really wonder to know how this is possible. That's coming from the same guy who took a long time before kissing the guy he was dating.... I've always known I was weird, but I think I have reached new summits!! haha!!
It is not something that I have anticipated or feared. I didn't even make scenarios of the way I wanted it to happen. I didn't even know which one I wanted to do first: top or bottom? But in the weeks leading to it, I did begin to wonder which I wanted to do first, as I felt it was going to happen. I guess I was a bit more intrigued about bottoming... I'm not really sure why I chose to bottom in the end. Maybe I figured that since I was the inexperienced one, I would let Flyman top me.
I know that I didn't have the strongest feelings for him. But, with every date, we would get closer physically and more intimate. Yes, I could have decided to wait for someone I did have feelings for to get "beamed up" for the first time (LOL I had to remind everyone of that expression!!). But I thought that doing it with A good guy would be enough.
When it was happening, I didn't really feel that something very important was happening. It was just the continuity of what we had been doing during our previous dates.
It's a bit weird... I don't know what to think about it!! Why was it so "unimportant" to me??
Anyways, like you know, it didn't last long and neither of us had time to have fun.... So somehow, it kinda doesn't count... but I did have a penis beamed up my butt... So I lost my V Card. But I feel like I still have it. But it's not as if it was super important to me!! Anyways, I still haven't put my penis in another guy's butt, so I'm still a virgin somehow !!
I don't know how my post "sounds" like, but I want to reassure you that I'm not desperate or anything, this whole thing makes me smile more than anything!!
or
- someone who just wants to do it as soon as possible.
In both cases, it seems to be a really big "event".
Somehow, it really didn't seem that big to me... I really wonder to know how this is possible. That's coming from the same guy who took a long time before kissing the guy he was dating.... I've always known I was weird, but I think I have reached new summits!! haha!!
It is not something that I have anticipated or feared. I didn't even make scenarios of the way I wanted it to happen. I didn't even know which one I wanted to do first: top or bottom? But in the weeks leading to it, I did begin to wonder which I wanted to do first, as I felt it was going to happen. I guess I was a bit more intrigued about bottoming... I'm not really sure why I chose to bottom in the end. Maybe I figured that since I was the inexperienced one, I would let Flyman top me.
I know that I didn't have the strongest feelings for him. But, with every date, we would get closer physically and more intimate. Yes, I could have decided to wait for someone I did have feelings for to get "beamed up" for the first time (LOL I had to remind everyone of that expression!!). But I thought that doing it with A good guy would be enough.
When it was happening, I didn't really feel that something very important was happening. It was just the continuity of what we had been doing during our previous dates.
It's a bit weird... I don't know what to think about it!! Why was it so "unimportant" to me??
Anyways, like you know, it didn't last long and neither of us had time to have fun.... So somehow, it kinda doesn't count... but I did have a penis beamed up my butt... So I lost my V Card. But I feel like I still have it. But it's not as if it was super important to me!! Anyways, I still haven't put my penis in another guy's butt, so I'm still a virgin somehow !!
I don't know how my post "sounds" like, but I want to reassure you that I'm not desperate or anything, this whole thing makes me smile more than anything!!
Socially, I don't think we guys are inundated with the importance of virginity as much as women are (with the possible exception of "why haven't you done it and become a man yet" rhetoric). There's certainly not this idea that once a man has sex, he is "damaged goods" and no longer "pure." (Even in fundamentalist "purity culture," I get the impression it's less of a deal for a man to be "impure" than a women.) So I'm not surprised that it was no big deal for you.
ReplyDeleteLike I said, the only way in which it seems to be a big deal for a man is because some people think a guy needs to have sex to "prove he's a man." From what I've read, I get the impression you haven't felt the need to prove any such thing.
You are right. I don't define myself with other people's expectations. I have never felt the need to prove that I am a man and frankly, I think that this is really rare, judging from the guys around me!!!
DeleteFunny you write about this, I consider I lost my (bottom) virginity twice, the first time a guy "beamed" me up - LOL...which was a good/ok experience. & then the first time I was made love to by the first BF I truly had, that was an out of body - whole person orgasmic experience...
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you had such a wonderful beaming up experience ! :)
DeleteSame here it was not a big deal to me losing it.
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