Refriending

Since the events with Janice and the night when Jack and I got a big talk, I've been much less involved in our group of friends.  I usually go to Jack's 2-3 times a week.  In the last month I have only gone there once...  Since Janice was mad at me, I didn't want to create awkward situations.

I was still seeing Jack at work, but not Janice.  Being absent from Jack's also meant that I was seeing Jessica (the girl I want to come out to) less.

A day at work this week, Jessica asked me: "What's new in your life??"  I was a bit shocked, since what was new was that I wanted to come out to her, but it was not a great idea to say it at that moment!!  I asked her why she asked me that, because she's never really asked me this kind of questions.  She said that we were seeing each other a lot less and that she was missing me a bit!  After that we did some small talk.

It stayed like that for the rest of the week.  Yesterday night, I was feeling good and I wanted to invite her at my house to tell her what's new in my life!  I messaged her on Facebook asking what she's doing.  She said she's drinking wine with friends and invites me to join them.  Since she didn't mention their name, I thought I didn't know her friends and at first I say that I will pass.  But soon after, I realize that it would be good for me to party a bit.  So I tell her that I may change my mind and I ask her if I know her friends.  She says that I know them very well.  I thought surely Jack and Janice were there, but I will go anyways.  It's not me who doesn't want to talk to Janice, it's her who doesn't want to talk to me.  So I'll go and if she doesn't want to talk to me, she just has to not talk to me.

So I go and when I arrive there's Jessica and her boyfriend, Jack, Janice and a couple of other friends that I also know.  I had brought a bottle of wine and soon the talk comes to know if we open my bottle or if I drink what's already open.  To my surprise, Janice offers me very nicely to drink her wine.  I accept and it is very good (there's oh so few wines I don't like LOL).  She's been nice with me all night long but we didn't get in any discussion together.  At least I was happy to see that we can be in the same party without making things awkward.

The night went really well, I had a huge blast!!  I got a lenghty discussion with Jack and it was like old times!  It was the first party we had together since I came out to him and it's true that it doesn't change a thing for him that I'm gay.  At one point he told that it had been a long time that we didn't have fun like that together and I totally agreed.  It was a little bromantic moment between us and it was really cool!

A little later, I engaged in a discussion about music with Jessica and the guy from the other couple.  Somehow, Jess sayd I'm really funny and she said a couple of times things like "It had been a while!"  I felt so appreciated and loved from Jess and previously Jack.  It was a great change of pace from the previous weeks!  Jess was especially happy too and was probably at her funniest I've seen her like forever...  She even slapped my arm and belly a few times when I was being silly.  She's usually so prude she doesn't want to touch anybody.

All in all, it was just a great night!!  I was really not in a state to drive, so I asked the other couple if they would take me home, since they live near from me.  They accepted and I left my car there.  It was the price to be able to sleep in my confy bed (I really didn't want to sleep on a couch!).  On the way home, I got to talk with them and their little daughter who is just so adorable.  I don't think I've ever seen a little girl more adorable than her!  It was a good way to end this evening.

I didn't come out, but I had a great time.  I'm still carless this morning, so I need to find a way to get my car back!!