From as long as I remember, I have always thought that I would have kids some day. I guess we all have our reasons to want to have kids. Most good, some bad, some unhealthy.
When I imagine myself having kids, what I see is this. I see me looking for them, caring for them, loving them. I see me helping them explore the world they live in, explore who they are, what they like. I see them becoming adults and taking their place in this world. I see me being a rock for them. A constant positive force.
But what brings me to tears everytime I think about having children, is the pride I would have in them becoming adults, world citizens and standing up for what they believe in.
I recently had the same pride feeling. One of my friends from the chat room recently made huge steps in his coming out process. He actually went from having it hidden to everyone and swearing he would stay in the closet forever to being openly gay to everyone in a matter of weeks. And on top of that, he started an anti-bullying campagne at his school. There is no word for me to describe how proud of him I am. I certainly didn't have such a great impact in his decisions to do all this, but I am so proud whatsoever because I care a lot for him.
He is becoming what I want my kids to become.
I'm so proud of him. (*sweeping tears*)
JF, I LOVED, loved reading this. And yeah, I got a little teary, too.
ReplyDeleteI think you'd be a great parent. This is based on knowing you're a great human being. :)
thanks, Matt
Delete"I see me being a rock for them. A constant positive force."
ReplyDeleteI love this. You'll be a great dad. :)
thanks, Ann Marie
DeleteI smiled all the way through reading your thoughts, JF.
ReplyDeleteI know you'll be the best dad!
♥BIG HUGS♥
Brad, you confuse me!! lol When I wrote it and when I reread it I can't help having tears and you say it makes you smile!! weird, right? :p
DeleteMy mouth was doing a "happy smile" but my eyes were watery. :)
DeleteVery sweet! It's fantastic that you are such a great gay role model already, relatively early in your own gay journey.
ReplyDeleteThank you Buddy, but... I don't undersand the "gay" role model thing. I mean, there is nothing in the post related to me being gay.
Deletei feel the same way!!! i think only by having children will one truly understand what unconditional love is. or at least, quasi-unconditional love.
ReplyDeletefantastic post bud :D
thanks, kenn-do
DeleteI'm surprised at how the comments you all made focus on the parenting thing and not on the pride thing!! I guess parenting is a very deep subject for most people. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful post, JF. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
ReplyDeleteYou'll be a great dad some day, JF and your friend sounds awesome.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Shell