Why am I so insecure? I used to be independant. Now I feel so dependant. I don't recognize myself anymore. I'm so pathetic. I scare my friends away. I'm so lonely. I'm an alien. I don't understand how other people act. Why doesn't anyone try to understand me? I'm not crazy. I'm so lonely. I'm not crazy I just need people to answer to my calls or text messages. It would just be politeness or respect. Where has respect gone? Why does everyone make plans with others but they can't with me? I'm going nuts. I feel so alone. I'm not like that usually. I wish I could trust people but they do everything so that I won't. The only person who never let me down is my mom. I wish I could have other persons I know will never let me down. I cry so much these days. I just want to be with someone. Why can't I be happy? Everytime I have the slightest hope, I have a huge payback. Am I bipolar? I wish I was not like this. I'm an alien. I don't have really high expectations but people keep not achieving them. I can't be alone anymore. I just can't take it anymore. I need to connect with someone I'm speechless. I'm clueless. I try and I try amd I try the people say I do too much. but when I do nothing, nothing happens. I always end up alone. I can't stand being alone anymore. I've been alone for so long.... but now I can't. I just want to have someone to trust and love and that he does feel the same about me. I don't think I'm asking for too much :(
Oh sweetie, like you said in your earlier post this week, we all have demons. No, you are not asking too much, we all want to belong in some capacity and we all need friends. I'm ALWAYS here if you ever want someone to talk to.
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Hey jf, if you ever wanna talk, I'm always available. I do keep in contact with a few friends I've made from blogging and we talk like almost every day. Just let me know via email ok?
ReplyDeleteIf it helps, we all feel like that from time to time. You're not alone.
ReplyDeletethank you guys. I had been told that I should write down my thoughts to free my mind. So that's what I did. :)
ReplyDeleteI think everyone can read this, and remember a time when they felt like exactly like this. You are brave for sharing it. I don't have trust issues because I really believe that people for the most part have good intentions and when something goes wrong, its not proof that everyone is the same, it just happens to be a bad thing that has happened.
ReplyDeleteA new reader here, I look forward to reading more.
welcome!
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