Surprise after the third date!

Thursday afternnon, I was at work and during a break, I went to see my facebook.

To my surprise, MC had written something very personal on his page.

He wrote a love letter to me, but not mentionning my name, for all of his friends to see what was happening in his life.

He went into a lot of detail, explaining what we did in our first 3 dates and how he feels about me and why he loves me.

Sure, it is nice to know all that, but I was relly shocked, but not necessarily in a bad way.  He confirmed in his post that he does like me, that it is true and that he hopes we will build something together.

Luckily he didn't tag me or I would have been embarassed lol.  But I guess it's OK.  I'm not really afraid of his feelings even if I don't have them for him.  I just hope that he can understand that and that it won't be a problem in the short term.  I simply want to continue seeing him and go out together and also be more intimate.  But I don't want to rush anything. As always I want to go with the flow.  But I hink he is ok with that!  I guess he is just much more of a " fast lover " and likes to share with his friends all what is happening in his life ( while I prefer to do it on an anonymous blog hahaha)

Stay tuned for the next date on Saturday evening and Sunday.

Third date with MC

I decided to invite MC for dinner on wednesday night.  I didn't have much time to prepare food, so I went to the grocery store to buy dessert and wine and back home, I prepared hamburger and a salad.  When he arrived I was still preparing food, so we started chatting in the kitchen.  It was kinda funny because we had not kissed or touch each other yet.  After a small while, he grabbed me and we started making out.  It was already dark outside, so anybody who could have walked in the streets could have seen us, but I didn't care! ( I actually don't know if someone saw us) I had forgotten to buy ketchup, so as it is the only condiment I put in my hamburgers, it was kinda necessary! So we went together at the grocery store to buy it.  Back home, we started eating and it was really nice.  We still don't always something to talk about ( we are both not the most extrovert guys). But I took these moments to just look at him :)

After the meal, we went in the living room to watch a movie.  I had been at Jack's before going to the grocery store to borrow him a few movies.  I told him that I had invited a guy over and that I had planned to watch a movie during the evening.  sadly he didn't really ask any question.  I was eager to tell him more, but I guess it will be for another time.

We watched the movie laying side by side on the couch, and I have to admit that we missed a few parts of the movie LOL.  After the movie ended, we made out again for a long time on the couch.  Then, when we decided to go to bed ( way past 11) , he went to take a shower and I waited for him in my bed. When he came back, he joined me in bed and , guess what, we cuddled and kissed more.  

He actually initiated a bit of " dirty stuff" when he removed my dick from my boxers.  There is no need for me to elaborate a lot but we played there as well LOL.  At one point he asked me if i wanted to do it, but I said no, as I was not "there".  He was totally OK with that.  It was 2AM when we decided to call it a night, as I had set the alarm clock for 6AM the next morning.

Next mornning, when the alarm rang, we kissed and cuddled more haha and also played a bit down there!  Aftr 30 minutes I had to go take my shower so I left him again.  When I came back he had done the bed again.  I quickly had breakfast while he took a shower.  We were both ready to leave at the same time.  We kissed again in the stairs ( but this time I was clothed, so it was less sensual haha) and went outside together.  We kissed again in my driveway, and it was my first PDA ever!  I actually don't know if my neighbours saw me, but I have to admit it felt weird!

Oh!!

After the movie the night before, he had told me twice that he loved me.  Back outside on thursday morning, he said it again.  As I didn't really how to react ( and because I don't have the same feelings for him! ) I simply kissed him.  I thought that it was really early to say such a thing, but I didn't got bothered or anything, I just hope that he understands that I am not that fast to have these feelings.

Second date with MC

The day after our first date was a Sunday and he was working and I had a dinner at my parents.  Once back home at around 8 PM, I started exchanging messages with MC again and he was saying he wanted to come see me.  I told whim that I was not feeling so well, because I had allergies or a cold ( not sure what has been hitting me lately).  he said he didn't mind and that it would be worth it. So I said that he could do as he wished, so he came over.

Once he arrived, we talked for a while on the couch.  Then, I started throwing a pillow at him and after the 3rd time , I think, he jumped over me to tickle me.  I am so ticklish!!  I was now laying on my back and he was above me.  It was a fight as to who would tickle the other the most.

At a certain point we both surrendered and we were laying either side by side or one on top of the other.  He wanted to kiss me but I told him I was still too shy.  At a moment when I was on top of him, I was so close to his face.  I thought that his mouth and lips were just stunningly beautiful.  So I started sliding my finger on or right beside his lips.  It was hot hahah!  After a few minutes, I wanted to kiss him, so I slowly did it. One, two, than more soft kisses.  We both smiled and we kissed and made out a lot.  If you guys remember, I didn't really like kissing Flyman.  I think he was not sensual enough.  But with MC it's just perfect!!  He also kissed me at various places above the shoulders and I didn't know that I would like being kissed that much, I had shivers!  Especially in the head, through the hair hahah WEIRD,  lol!

At a moment when we were simply cuddling he told me: "Where were you hidden all that time?"  Isn't that adorable!?

When it had become late, I told him he had 3 options: go back to his parents ( I told him I was sure he had a curfew haha he didn't like that lol) ; sleep on the couch; or sleep with me, but I specified " no dirty stuff". He asked if kissing was considered dirty and I said no haha.  So he chose that option!

W went to bed and cuddled and kissed some more.  Than we agreed to sleep and we tried sleeping next to each other, but I am just not capable to deal with so much heat when I want to sleep.  So I had to get a bt away from him and I told him it was simply too hot for me.

The next morning, when the alarm rang, we kissed and cuddled some more ( oh and of course, we both didn't sleep a lot, since I was always coughing from my cold and needing to evacuate the stuff from my nose quite often). At one point I just had to get up and have my shower.  I did so and when I came back, he was already clothed and he had done the bed ( so nice!). I was simply in boxer briefs and as he was leaving, we were standing in the stairs and we started kissing again.  His hands were running beside me and on my bum , it felt so good ( and right!). I had never felt like that before.

3 dudes, a car and a date

I will come back soon on the story with SL, but since there is new stuff happening, I don't want to delay it too much, like I have a bad habit to do!

I exchanged messages with 3 different guys on Friday and Saturday.  (I am sadly the one who initiated them all... maybe my profile doesn't show the best of me!?!?)  The first one was nice, but he would not really initiate anything, he was imply replying to my messages.  Saturday morning I wrote that we should have a drink together sometimes.  He answered that it could happen in the future.  Dude, where is your enthousiasm??  So I decided to let him breathe a bit and I went looking for other guys. 

I saw another one who seems quite interesting. On his profile he described himself and what he likes and he also described the kind of guy he wants.  It turns out that I like the kind of perosn he is and I thought I answered all of his "criterias" but one.  The one I lacked is the one he said he wanted a guy who takes care of himself.  I thought it meant a guy well defined and muscled.  Anyways, I thought I was good enough (LOL) and sent him a message.  He replied and he asked me what made me write to him. I said that as cheesy as it sounds, I liked everything of his profile! And also that I think that I answer at a minimum level of what he is looking for.  He replied jokingly in friend about the cheesy part... unfortunately I know no translation in English, so its too bad for you guys ;)  He also asked why I think I answer to the minimum.  I replied that I am not in great shape, but yet I still have a hairy chest (he says it's a plus haha).  He replied that he doesn't necessarily want a super fit guy and was happy to learn about my chest LOL.  I replied that I would answer to the maximum criterias then!!  He was impressed haha and said that he was intrigued (isn't that just perfect when you're trying to date a guy!?!? hahaha)

He asked me my qualities, and I answered that I am really not good at selling myself, but that I would give it a try.  So I liste a few of my qualities and inserted that I like to tease* people (which can be viewed as a bad trait for some I suppose).  I was looking forward to his answer.  He said that I made a really good job at selling myself and that he likes people who tease because it shows humour.

* Once again I don't have the perfect translation, but what i mean is I like to kid, make fun of people but not in a bad way.  People who can't laugh of themselves don't really like this trait.  Can you guys submit me a list of adjective that could be a good definition? I will tell if one fits.

He asked me then what bad traits people think I have.  I gave him 2 , mentionning how I prefer to describe myself, rather than how people perceive me regarding these 2 traits.  I also asked him what are his good and bad sides.  As of now (I am typing these words sunday morning), he has not replied yet.

While I was chatting with that guy, I saw another guy who seemed interesting once again.  I sent him a message and he quickly replied.  Surprisingly he also asked me what made me write to him so I said I thought he was really cute and that I liked what he wrote on his profile.  He replied something similar to what I said and we realized that we both had nothing to do that night.  I suggested that we could meet and he agreed.

It may sound fast, but I don't really see the point in chatting forever with a guy without meeting him.  I mean, we could get along well chatting online, but maybe it couldn't click for real, so I prefer to meet soon.

It was already past 7 and I hadn't had dinner yet  I quickly ate and went to meet him.  We actually live 50 minutes apart so we agreed to meet in a town inbetween.  He said we could go walk in a park and then go for a coffee or something. He suggested we meet in the parking lot of a Wal-Mart and that he would drive us to the park (since he knows the place better then I do)

I have been given a good advice by a friend from the chatroom who told me that I should always tell someone when I have a first date with a guy, in case things could turn bad.  So I called my brother and told him I would meet this new guy and told him where I was going.  He asked what happened with the previous guy and I told him quickly.  Later during the date I sent a text message to my brother to tell him that all was alright.

So I arrived in the parking lot and the guy, let's call him MC, had texted to me to say he had arrived.  It was already kinda dark and I saw only one car that could be his.  I parked a few meters away from it and looked, but couldn't tell if it was the right guy.  I texted him, but somehow his phone wasnot working anymore, so he didn't reply.  Then I saw him wave at me so I went to his car and recognized him.  I entered in his car and we went to the park.  It felt awkward to meet a guy and the first thing I do I get in his car... 

We were both a bit shy I guess.  We didn't talk a lot.  When he talked he was talking about his boss and I was hoping he would not break my ears with her all night long hahaa.  At the park we started to walk and it was already almost total night so I was a bit afraid that I was alone with a complete stranger in the dark, but he seemed ok (in the future I will be more cautious about that).  We didn't talk a lot neither and I was thinking maybe we wouldn't connect.  Then it seemed like a storm was coming so I suggested we go back.  2 minutes after we got back in the car it started pouring rain!

We went in a coffee shop and unfortunately there was lots of weird people being loud.  We made fun out of it and we started being more at ease (finally!) with each other.  When we had enough of the loud people, we left and went back to the parking lot.  We stayed in his car for at least 45 minutes and we chatted about many different things and I got to show him my silly side.  I think we spent more than half of the time we spent together in his car, so that was a bit weird haha, cause in a car you're side by side, not face to face. (hmm why do I write that it is obvious! LOL)

He touched my knee or my thigh a few times near the end but I didn't do the same cause I'm just too shy LOL. He was often looking at me with his really beautiful eyes and I felt my "ovaries" at work LOL.  OK I admit my "ovaries" were not 100% responsible for that, because I did feel some sensual tension between us.  It was actually the first time I felt that with a guy I was meeting for the first time.

After the 3rd time I said I should leave, I hugged him as a goodbye and he kissed my neck.  I didn't do the same and I hope he won't take that as a sign I am not interested.  I got out of his car, entered mine, and as I left I waved at him and he waved at me.

I'm happy to see that even if it was a bit awkward at first, the date went better and I would like to meet him again :)

First anniversary!

Yay!  It's been a year I started this blog and I'm so happy I did!

Even if I knew I wanted to be super honest, I didn't know that that honesty and "openness" would also develop in other aspects of my life.  I actually sometimes have to stop myself from saying a few things to some people because I think it would be inappropriate.  What a change from the guy who kept all his feelings for himself :)

A good example is this week at work, there were some gardeners doing work outside and from my window I could see them.  Just as one hot guy was working below my window, Vickie called me to settle a problem.  I went to see her and I told her it was really a bad timing because of the show she made me miss.  She was like " Huhhh??"  So I explained that I was missing the hot gardener on all fours on the ground.  She was shocked and said: "OMG there is only you to say that!!!"  It was funny, but I did miss the show in the end :(  Anyways, I would never have imagined to say something like that before!!

My ovaries!

Ok, first of all no I am not going to change sex and I have always been a guy :).  My ovaries refer to the thing in my body ( or mind) that decides to arouse me when I am not sexually stimulated.

Hmmm whaaaatttt!?!? hahaha

I came up with that expression the first time I got excited by someone but not sexually.  I was so surprised when it happened that I came up with it LOL.  I shared a few of these moments with a few of my online friends and they thought I was funny so I continued with it ;)

How des it happen?  When a guy is nice to me.  For example, it just happened a few minutes  ago when I was chatting with a new prospect on the dating site and he said I was cute and that he liked my profile.  I got hard. (sorry if I'm too straightforward LOL).  It also happened when I was chatting the first day with SL.  We were just planning our meeting at the movie theatre when I realized I was hard.... 

I guess most guys (and maybe some girls too) are thinking " Are you kidding me?? you just found that out recently!?"  Well, yes! haha.  It's another positive aspect of my journey going forward I suppose!!

Sometimes

I guess sometimes it's just not meant to be.  Even if 2 persons are attached to each other and get along super well, it won't just happen.

I'm not in love with SL, yet I have tears this morning.  The first time I have tears for a guy.