Officially growing a beard

It's been 10 days since the last time I shaved.  I usually shave every 5-6 days (my beard is really not strong!)

My unshaving started because I was away on vacation in Mexico (lucky me!). I shaved the day before I left and didn't bring my shaving stuff in my luggage.  Once back home, I decided I could see what I look like if I keep growing it!  And the timing is perfect since it is Movember.  I would say that it is not as bad as I expected!  I was back to work today and I got 4 comments: 2 semi- negative and 2 positive!

Apart from that... stuff has been happening, but I've been way too lazy with blogging :(. I hope I can renew strongly with it soon.  I miss exchanging with you guys...

Would you have sex with yourself?

The other day, one of my gay friends asked me if I would have sex with myself.  I was totally surprised by the questions and I couldn't answer. I had never thought of that and I didn't feel like thinking about it hahah.

This morning, I happened (!) to see myself naked in the mirror and I thought I was quite sexy :). It made my day haha.  Later in the day, I remembered that question from my friend and I had my answer: YES!! I would definitely have sex with a guy like me :)  I like my hairy torso, my little belly, my bum and my general shape ( not to mention my private parts which I won't describe haha)

I was about to ask that question to my colleague and friend Vicky, when I realized that since she is not lesbian, she probably wouldn't have sex with a girl like herself!!

What about you guys and girls?

That was exciting!!

It finally happened!! I went in a gay bar with my brother!!  If you remember, a few months ago, I had written that I didn't know with whom to go in a gay bar for the first time.  destiny had me go for the first time during my trip in San Diego, then with some of the guys I dated.

But I still wanted a bonding moment with my brother.

After my first visit to a stripper bar, I got this idea that me and my brother could go together in a gay stripper and also in a straight stripper bar (with lady strippers lol).  You wouldn't be surprised to learn that I had never seen lady strippers.

2 sundays ago,   I finally asked my brother if he wanted to take part in that special brother's night out and he said yes.  I was so happy and excited and pumped!!  I couldn't wait to do it.  we had talked about the next friday or saturday, depending on his work schedule.  I have to say that this night out was what made me the happier during last week.  i couldn't help smiling and laughing thinking of it.

Came last Friday, and my brother told me it was best to go that night and it was perfect dor me cause I didn't want to wait another day lol.

So he came at my place and i drove us to Montreal.  It was a nice ride, we got to talk Bout some of the issues i have, trying to find a good guy to love.  He reassured me saying he sees some similar stuff in the straight world ( he actually isn't single, but he still hears and sees stuff happening!). It was definitely nice to be able to share these things so effortlessly and honestly with him.

Once we arrived in Montreal, he asked me if we were actually going to go in the gay village.  I said yes, cause why wouldn't the gay stripper club not be in the gay village!!  He diffenitely had a few funny questions like : is there a door that says you enter in the gay village, or do you have to be gay to live there.   it was so funny!!  I explained him that it was just a gathering of gay places and that it is not because there is a McDonald in it that everyone working there is gay.  also I him that you don't have to prove anything to anyone to live there hahahaha.

So we walked in the village for a bit and my brother could see that there's really nothing scary to see there for a staright guy lol.  The plan was actually to find the lady stripper bar first so we found one, but outside the village.  We entered there, ordered a beer and watch the show lol.  There were also some strippers walking by us and offering to talk or even being more direct like " Hey guys, does one of you want to come with me in my. office?!". i was so laughing at that one!!  I'm sure she does lots of serious business in her "office".  My brother was bothered by these girls cause he is really shy and he doesn't like to be bothered when he is sitting, drinking chatting and watching the show.   anyways, i got to see my first lady strippers.  It was ok, I didn't vomit or anything haha!  I'm not one to hate seeing naked girls, like other gay guys could be.

After having finished our beer, we got out and went to the gay stripper club YAY!!!!!  My brother didn't seem any scared or uneased to go there so I was really proud of him.  We entered and took seats in the middle of the "seating area" lol.  In retrospect, it was a bad choice, cause the strippers didn't come see us to offer their services.  It would have been so funny to see my brother being flirted by one of them.

We ordered a beer and watched the show haha!!  One thing I've noticed from my very few stripper clubs visits, is that guy strippers seem to have more fun on the stage than lady strippers.  i told that to my brother and he agreed.  My brother was actually surprised to see that the strippers were hard on the stage.  I did enjoy the show :) but my brother said he had no particular feeling hahaha.  I think we ended up being there longer than the other bar, so that was good for me haha.

After having finished our beer, we got out and even if it was not that late, we decided to go back home, because he has to get up early since he works on the farm.  But first i still wanted to enter a club i had been a few times, but i couldn't find it!!  So we simply went back to the car and i drove us back.  When he left my place to go back to his, I thanked him for that nice night and that I was really happy we did it.

Maybe next time we'll bring in my sister too hahah!! except she could be the only girl in the gay stripper bar, as I didn't see any during my few visits there.

My newest erotic and sexual dreams!

I had to go back to my previous post about it to find out when I last had them.  It was in february!  8 months later, I had 3 in 2 nights!!!  woof what's going on? hahaha

The first 2 were in the same morning last thursday.... between 5am and 8 am!

In the first one, I was with the "infamous" J.  So it was actually the first dream I had with a gay guy I know and as a matter of fact that I have dated and had feelings for.  the only thing I remember from that dream is that we were 69ing in a position that is clearly impossible in real life. Dreams hahah!!!

In the second one, i was on bed with another unknown guy.  He was naked and was showing me his butt.  The dream was too short, so the only thing that happened is that I was playing with his "rear parts" ( trying not to be too vulgar here!!)

I was already amazed to have had these 2 dreams in the same morning!  The next morning, i had another one!  In that dream, i was in a bar with a guy I've been chatting with this week.  he didn't look like the guy at all but it was him nonethelesse!!  He was all over me....  pulling his pants down and showing me his hardware and sitting on me.  I was a bit embarassed in the dream and I was trying to escape him haha... even if I was excited by him.

I didn't have a dream that i could remember of this morning, but it's all good haha.

Weekend adventures

I've been going out and dating more than usual this past month.  But I'm back to square 1 at the moment :(

3 weekends ago

Thursday: I had a date with a guy. We were supposed to have a beer in a bar, but instead we went to the ice cream shop.  After that, we went for a walk.  That guy didn't really interest me.  The next day I tell him that I'm not interest in pursuing.  He asks why did you tell me that we would see each other again? I replied that I was not sure yet so I prefered to not close the door too fast.  He seemed pissed at me, but I really don't think I was a jerk.  I kept the door open for more thinking and the next day I told him the truth.... I don't think I led him in false hopes.

Friday: I was chatting with a guy I went out once during the summer, we had gone rollerblading together then had dinner.  So I was chatting again with this guy and we decided that we would go out in Montreal.  So I was about to go to my first gay bar in Montreal haha. I had already gone to a few in San Diego and only to one lesbian bar in Montreal ( did I ever write about it??) So anyways we met in a parking lot and he drove us there.  So we went in a stripper bar hahaha.  It was nice.  Some were good ( one was particularly hot) and some were bad in my opinion.  We then went to another stripper bar!  This guy usually goes dancing, but since I had told him I didn't really like to dance we simply stayed in that bar.  All in all we had a good time, shared a few laughs.  We talked more on the ride to and from, since it was about 45 minutes.  He is a nice guy and sexy also, but he is not the most talkative and I am not neither, so it was not a whirlwind of words!!  I've had a few signs that he may be interested in me... but I'm just too slow to notice them as they happen and also I'm really to shy ( I have to change that!!!) to do a few moves :(.

Saturday: I met this nice but young (21) guy. We went dinner then to the movies.  When we were chatting before our date, it was a bit awkward at times as he asked me questions such as: will we get closer during the movie? will I be able to kiss you? do you confirm we really are going out together tonight?

I let these things aside and still went.  The guy was nice, but I really didn't feel anything special for him.  Once at the theater, one of his cousins arrived with her boyfriend and they sat beside us!!!! LOL I can't believe how stupid they are.  I didn't really care, but my date was probably so mad!!

The next days he wrote me if we would meet again and I said yes, since I was not ready to close the door on him.  But then time passed and I have not contacted him again so I feel bad about this one.  It was really not my intention to be that cheap :(

Sunday: I met up with J again.  I don't really remember what we did on that particular "meeting" ( not sure I can call it a date). But, in the evening, we were watching tv and got slightly close.  When bed time came he asked me to sleep in bed with him. I agreed and we simply slept cuddling together.  Once, he put his hand on my thigh sidde, at butt height!  I got aroused and it lasted at least 10 minutes.  He was ot moving his hand or nothing and he surely didnt realize what was going on.  But, talking to one of my chat room friends about that, he made me realize that if it lasted that long, it's because I have something not just physical for him.  The next morning, we watched tv in bed and then I left.  I was honestly not hoping for anything following that... I took it as a nice time sleeping cuddling.

To be continued....

Crazy nights in San Diego

I just finished 2 weeks of vacation.  During a first week marked by upsets, I decided that I needed to fly away and luckily, I have a friend in San Diego who could host me for my second week.  So on the first wednesday of my vacation, I purchased plane tickets for San Diego from Saturday to the next saturday.

I arrived in San Diego at almost midnight on saturday night, and I had been travelling for about 12 hours already so I was really empty .  My friend ( who is also gay) wanted to go out to see the strippers in a bar, but I really needed to go relax and sleep.

The next night though, we went to 2 bars (for those who know the bars there: Flicks and Rich's).  It was not a very busy night.  We didn't stay long in any of the bars.  My friend couldn't find any of his friends but it was ok for me, it was my first official visit in a gay bar !!

It was really cool to see guys being together and being comfortable for being who they are and loving what they love.  I did see a very hot guy with a purple baseball hat ( did I ever mention I have a thing for baseball hats?!? hahaha)

We went back home quite early, I think it was around midnight hahah! Not so crazy you will say... well I agree :). But it was still crazier then Monday when we stayed home haha!

Tuesday night we went to see a movie: 2 guns, with Mark Wahlberg.  A good movie, although I thought that there were too many people involved in the plot.  But MW was nice to look at of course! Wednesday we went to meet some of his friends and it was relax but nice.

OK, the craziness is about to start haha!!

On thursday evening, we went to see some other of his friends.  One of them came to talk to me and we chatted for a while.  We even talked about going for a hike the next saturday before I left, with another of his friends ( we eventually did go on that hike on Saturday afternoon!).  We eventually all went to Flicks and I got to chat more with the other guys in that group.  They were all really nice guys.  If I was to go live in San Diego I'm sure they would be my friends.  After a while there, the group decided to go at Bourbon, where yhere was a wet underwear contest hahahah!!  Do I need to say that it was going to be the first time I would attend such an event!?

To my great pleasure, my favorite guy won the contest!! he was REALLY cute and hot and sexy lol.  I tried to find some pics on the net of him but apparently no pic of him winning the contest is on the net :(.   Furing the contest, one guy came talking to me.  Pretty rapidly, the conversation turned to this:

Him: Do you like asian guys? (he's asian!)

Me: ( I think I laughed out of nervousness.  I didn't reply. But I don't think he took it wrong as then ...)

Him: Do you wanna hook up tonight?

Me: No!

Hehehe! another first!!  I seriously have nothing against asian guys and there are some that I find really cute and sexy, but the bottom line is that I am not into that!!

A bit later, as me and my friend were leaving and were outside, I saw the contest winner and I am surprised that I shouted :" Hey congrats!!"

Another first for me. But what is even more suprising about me is what happened next.  He saw me and acknowledged his congratulations. But then there was a small awkward moment when we both didn't know what to do.  I then went to him and hugged him and I said again " congrats!" ( oh btw he had his clothes back on at that moment hahaha).  Then I went away smiling.  I kinda regret not having chatted a bit with him or maybe try to get a feel of his butt, but I didn't think about that hahah!  Next time I suppose :)

The next day (friday) we got a text from one of my frind's friend and it was actually saying: " Hey guys, tonight is JF's last night in San Diego and let's make it a fun night for him. Let's go out tomight and party with him"

That was really sweet! What a good guy he is! They actually usually go out on saturdays, not fridays. So they moved their gathering for me! It was really nice from him to think about that and from the other guys to join us!

Before going out, my frien and I went for dinner in an italian restaurant!  He made me taste his calamari..... I almost threw up :( what a disgusting texture and taste!!  Did I ever mention I don't like seafood??

But!! I had something much more exciting happening to me during our time at the restaurant! There was this super hot guy who was sat right in front of me, and I could watch him a lot haha!!  It's only the next day or the other that I realized that the guy I saw was very probably this guy:

The very sexy (porn) actor Adam Whirtmore!!  I'm sure it was him!  He was actually looking sexyer than on that pic and had a nice green bandana. 

After dinner, we joined my new friends at Flicks ( again haha) and started drinking there before heading to Rich's.  At Rich's, there were gogo dancers and it was  new first for me to withess that hehe.  There's one of them that I didn't like at all. he obviously was way too full of himself and didn't seem nice at all.  I liked more to watch those who seemed to have fun!  Anyways, my new friends wanted me to go tip them! but there was no way I was going to do that hahahah.  Not that I would not have appreciated slipping a dollar bill under one of the hotties undies, but seriously, there is something really weird about all that for me. Maybe I'll come back on this on a future post.

We danced a lot and it was actually the first time I was dancing in a gay bar.  For anyone who has never been in a gay bar, if you've been in a " regular" bar, you have seen the same thing, except that in the gay bar, guys touch and kiss each other together instead of doing that to girls.  Once again, there was something weird for me about that promiscuity and sexualization of the dance at times.

I admit that I did dance with a guy (another first) and I was holding him and it was nice.  But there was something... missing... as there was no other connection between us then the physical one.

All and all, it was another great night and I really enjoyed it.  Oh!  and near the end, I saw again the hottie from the restaurant and he was dancing really well!!

The next night, I again missed the strippers, as I was at the airport for my flight back.  My friend made me realize that next time I visit him, I have to make sure to have my full weekend available as there is alot of action happening!!!

Of course, it was not a crazy week at all!! It was a good, fun and refreshing one and I'm glad to have done it and very happy of the firsts I experienced and that I managed to make friends quite easily!  I need to find friends like that here!!

First anniversary!

Yay!  It's been a year I started this blog and I'm so happy I did!

Even if I knew I wanted to be super honest, I didn't know that that honesty and "openness" would also develop in other aspects of my life.  I actually sometimes have to stop myself from saying a few things to some people because I think it would be inappropriate.  What a change from the guy who kept all his feelings for himself :)

A good example is this week at work, there were some gardeners doing work outside and from my window I could see them.  Just as one hot guy was working below my window, Vickie called me to settle a problem.  I went to see her and I told her it was really a bad timing because of the show she made me miss.  She was like " Huhhh??"  So I explained that I was missing the hot gardener on all fours on the ground.  She was shocked and said: "OMG there is only you to say that!!!"  It was funny, but I did miss the show in the end :(  Anyways, I would never have imagined to say something like that before!!

A rose, a bottle of wine and a jockstrap

That would have been a really sweet birthday gift....

Or even a few male strippers.

I'm not hard to please :)

As long as you want to please me !!!

Special day

I woke up 1 year older this morning!  Yay and I'm off work because of Good Friday!!  And this also happens to be my 100th post!!!!

Celebration!!!!! Hahahaha!!!!

I just thought I would share some nice things with you for this special day.
They are pics I have taken on various trips.  Yes, I love mountains, water, the sun and awesome landscapes.

If you want you can try to guess where they were taken :)   Some are easy, others less !

Acquired tastes

I was talking with another guy the other day and, somehow, we ended up talking about masturbation !!  He told me that he was usually listening to music while doing so.  I told him that I don't think I have actually done that.  He told me that it was part of his ritual and also that he has not always been like that.  He told me it was an acquired taste.

Because my mind is always racing to all kinds of thoughts... I ended up thinking about one of my own acquired tastes!!!  Butts!!! Hahahahaha!!!

When I was younger and I started watching... hummmm .. porn :), I have to admit my eyes were focused mostly on.... hmmmmm ....   frontal parts!!  It's only in the last years that I have become more... hmmmm... interested in butts!!  I really don't have an explanation for that. 

Anyways, I'm happy to have added butts to my list of ... hmmm.... enjoyments!!!  Do you have acquired tastes you would like to share??

It's hard to find general-rated pics of nice butts!

No butt on this one, but a nice eye candy whatsoever!

I'm still here !! -- Going forward edition

I've decided to take on the challenge from Brad at 2 Boys in Love and share a list of "items" that have caught my attention lately.  

Item 1: Insanely hot dudes!!

I have to say that I've been a bit off these last weeks.  But these last days...  it's beginning to change!!  I'm .... well.... hornier :)  And I can't believe how these dudes below are hot!!

Item #2: Ben Cohen

I know he's not an item!!  He's a person, and a very good looking one.  It is not the first time I post pics of him here and there is a good reason for that.  It's because I just can't stop going back to looking at him !! Hehehe!!!

Item #3: Bubbly

As I've mentionned at Item #1,  I'm beginning to be back at my usual self.  So I began to be happier.  When I was downer, one of my friends in the chat room had told me that he missed my bubbly side.  I was not quite sure what it meant, but I kinda knew it had to do with general happiness. Then, a few days ago, that same friend said he was happy because I was back to being bubbly!!  That really made me smile because it is such a funny word and I'm happy to be identified as "bubbly".  It's become my word of the week!  Anyways, I suppose it looks silly from the outside, but it really means something to me.

Item #4: Cooking

I wish I knew how to cook.  I wish I could prepare good meals.  But sadly, I don't have passion for that and I lack on planning for it.  So, I often end up eating some really simple and basic stuff.  And it becomes repetitive, I lack creativity as well on that department....

Item #5: Meds

Tonight is the 28th and last day of my tritherapy.  I did hide it from everyone around me except my boss.  That proved a bit tricky on the 2 occasions that I had a dinner at my parents.  I didn't want to take my meds there because my family would have noticed it.  Luckily, I had to take my meds at 5:15, so before leaving for dinner at my parents, I took "pre-dinners" and took my meds and hurried to leave for my parents.  I had to lie to give reasons why I was so late, but its for the better good.

Item #6: Europe

I've been chatting with a lot of Euro guys and living there seems awesome!!  You're so close to many other countries and cultures!!  You can travel within the continent at what seems to be relatively cheap prices.  I'm thinking about going over there for my summer vacations.  So far I've stayed in North America and the furthest I went was California.  So Europe would really be a cool destination to go to.

Item #7: Bazaar

I started reading that Stephen King book last summer.  I have 2/3 read.  I really enjoyed reading it, but somehow I stopped.  I really need to go back at it again!

Erotic and sexual dreams

I don't about you, but it seems like I really don't do these very often.  At least, I don't remember them when I wake up.  I have woken up only 4 times in my life, remembering an erotic dream!!  And the first one happened about a year ago, when I was seeing the sex counsellor. 

It was really a weird dream (what dream isn't?!)  I was with my sister's best (girl)friend.  We were kissing and licking our faces like crazy.  So much that thinking about it no, it was really disgusting haha!!  Then after a while, my penis had just entered the girl, only to realize that we didn't have a condom.  So we looked around, I saw my sister and asked her to go get a condom for us.  While waiting for her to come back, we were just there, waiting....  then I woke up.

The second dream happened about 3 weeks ago!  I was with a girl (again!) I had met at university and I had met her again the weekend prior to that, so I suppose it may explain why I dreamt of her.  In the dream, we were in a bed, making love, but there was always someone entering the room, doing stuff and leaving, without really bothering what we were doing.  And we were not really worried neither.  I'm not sure how it ended, but there was nothing extraordinary happening!

The 3rd dream happened 2 nights ago.  I was with a group of (unknown) guys at some sort of beach.  I was having small talk with one of the guys and at one moment I told him that if he didn't stop what he was doing (don't remember what it was), I was going to jump on him.  He didn't stop and... I jumped on him.  We kissed and "fucked" (I don't like the word, but that's really what we were doing) vigurously for a long time, then I woke up.

The 4th dream happened last night!! (I'm on a roll hehe!)  It started as I was at my parents and I was with Jack and we had to get in a car in the cold winter.  Then, we were suddenly in a basement and I was with another guy I work with (really sexy with an awesome voice!!) and we were laying side by side.  I was actually facing his back.  We were really close and I was feeling myself getting harder.  I was thinking that I couldn't get hard because I didn't want him to know I think he's really hot.  At one point I joked and played with his hair and he didn't seem to like.  I pulled away from him a bit to make sure he would not feel me poking in his back.  But a bit after that, he would turn and face me and I had really a lot of sexual tension in me.  The situation was really exciting but I knew I couldn't do anything with him.  And... I woke up!! 

Even if nothing happened, it was really my most intense erotic dream (not that there is a lot to choose from!!)  And the first time with a guy I'm attracted to.

This post doesn't really have a purpose, but I thought it would be a welcome change of pace.  What about your own erotic dreams????

The best of 2012

In this end of year, I thought I would do a little review of what happened "blog-wise"!!



Most viewed post:  A survey, what do we like about men ?

Most comments in a single post: Beam me up

Most stupid comments convo: Beam me up

Countries with the most page views:  1- USA (hands down) , 2 -Canada, 3- Russia (really!?)

Origin site with the most visitors from:  2 boys in love  Thanks guys <3 !!

Most google search:  "gay construction worker" hahah!!  I'm not the only one liking them :)

My own best favorite post: Showing my true self for the first time
If you have not read it, I would encourage you to read it, as well as all those posts from the early days of my blog, if you want to know me better.




Thanks again to all my readers! You often make my day!!  Please come back often and comment!! I love having your feedback ( and I'm an attention whore, as all bloggers are!!)

See you in 2013!!

JF

PS.  Here's a nice vid I found this morning, it made my day :)
PPS. I want the one on the right ;-)

Merry Christmas!!!

(pic found on bosguy.com)

I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a lot of fun time

Have fun, get together with the people you love and enjoy!!  Eat a lot (mandatory at this period of time) and for those who can... eat a lot  :-p  (thinking of my friends Matt and Brad here LOL)

What do I like about men ? They're sexy!!

I also find more "regular" guys sexy :)

It's finally my turn to tell what I like about men!!

Where to start !??

First, I'd like to say that I can be attracted to a lot of types of men.  I'm not really specific in terms of height, hair color, scruffiness, apparent masculinity/feminity....  There are many ways for me to think a man is sexy.  Notice that I said sexy, not beautiful.  I know some guys that are beautiful but I don't find sexy and vice versa.  I really prefer the sexy ones even if they're not really beautiful :)

I guess that's one thing I like about men: that there are so many ways for them to look sexy.  There are girls that I think look sexy, but they are rare. 

But how could I define "sexy" ??  I guess in the end, it means that it would be fun time in bed with the guy LOL.  But I don't like guys (or girls) who look slutty.  There's a big difference for me between sexy and slutty.  Slotty to me is like a fake behavior, something forced, an act.  Sexy is natural for me.  If I compare guys and girls, ( please girls, don't shoot me for what I'm about to say), I'd say that there are more girls who look slutty.  It often seems to me that girls put an act to be sexy or attractive and it's a big turn off for me.  It's a turn off too when guys do it, but it seems much less frequent to me. 

So I like how naturally men are sexy.  They can wear an old pair of jeans and a white t-shirt and bingo!  They can only be wearing a pair of shorts and a baseball cap and bingo!  It seems so more complicated for a girl to look sexy... but I may be biased LMAO

I like how sometimes I only see a guy's face pic and he's OK.  Then I see him move in real life and suddenly he becomes so sexy.

I like how a guy can seem OK , but then I see him naked (thanks internet) and woof!!!

If I look at a man, what do I like about his physical traits??  Now that I'm thinking about it... I'd say everything hahahaha!!!  I like a guy's shoulders, back, arms, armpits, hands, chest, belly, thighs, legs, face, eyes, lips, plumbing area and of course butt!!  I like a guy to be hairy or not, but I prefer hairy.  I like muscle or not, but not too much.

I like masculine guys, but I like more "feminine" guys too.  For me it is not a criteria to find them sexy.  Like the waiter I'm trying to get to know.  He looks ever so slightly feminine and the way he walks doesn't look very masculine.  But I still think the way he walks is sexy (I still remember him walking!! Aww so sexy!)

Oh the voice too....  you know when a guy gets his voice to be a little lower... so naughty :)  There's something in a guy's voice that girls don't have.  But girls have something in their voice that guys don't have, so we're equal on this one :)

On the psycological aspect, I like how men seem more simple than women.  I "get" men more.  How often do I hear or see a woman and shake my head in disbelief at what she says or does??  That almost never happens for me with men.

I also like how a man reacts when he's being "pleasured" :) It's like nothing else exists than what he's receiving.... (thanks again to the internet :)

I like how men are simply men.  I think they're more likely to be who they are and show their "stupidest" side. I think men are more playful than women and allow themselves more to just chill out and enjoy.

You see that I don't elaborate a lot about the psychological traits of men, that's because I've never been intimate with a man.  Hopefully, that will change sooner than later :)

I think you get the picture now!!  Sexy, natural, playful, man's parts.....  men!!

Stripping for my man

I was listening to this song on the radio this afternoon and I just felt like stripping for my man.  I have not found my man, of course.  He doesn't know what he's missing :)

Selena Gomez and The Scene - I love you like a love song

The clip doesn't portray what I had in mind when I was listening to it on the radio.  I guess there's a continuity to be found from the "Beam me up" post hahaha!!!

If you also feel like stripping for your man (or woman!) on that song, I invite you to do it and then tell me how it went :)

"Beam me up"

Today at work, Jess asked me to translate for her the expression "Beam me up".  That was actually the first time I heard that expression so I tried to figure what it could mean.  The translation I came up with was: "Fourre-moi", which means "Fuck me". 

I really don't know if that's what it means. But I told her that I guess the beam is the penis, so "Beam me up" means "Fuck me".  She was shocked and couldn't believe that she had been signing this all morning.  I said "What is it a song?"  And she said yes.

She was still not sure of my translation so I really mimicked the action of being "beamed up" and I did as if I caught a penis behind me and stick it in my butt.  I realized what I was doing a few seconds too late :)  Hahaha!!  I don't know if she realized what I was doing, I was not expecting to do this at all!!  Anyways, it made me laugh a lot.

Later in the day, we're a group of people during the break and Jess says I'm a big pervert who is obsessed with sex!!  She explains that she asked me a translation and that it was sexual, but that she also asked another guy who told her it was a reference to a Star Trek catchphrase and that she preferred that explanation to mine.  I was still not convinced :)

Anyways, it was a lot of fun, but I still don't know if I was right or not.  I found out tonight that it's a Pink song.  But, come on, she also has a song titled "Blow me"....  so I'm sure my explanation is very good!

Thanks to all of those who shared what they liked about men in my previous post, I will come back to it soon with what I like about men.

A survey: What do we like about men?

I often wonder if straight girls like men the same way gay guys do.

If there was a list of the 5 things straight girls and gay guys like best about men, would the lists be the same?

I'd like the most people to comment on this post and tell me what they like about men.  Come on, it's your time to open up :)  Don't be shy :)

Gay construction workers!

I went to the LGBT meeting tonight.  It was better than last time.  The subjects of conversations were more varied and also the people were more mature.  The 3 girls from the other day were not there and there were 2 new guys, plus the new host (he couldn't make it the first time).

It was nice, made me want to come back again.

One of the things that I will remember, was when one of the guys said that half of the guys in the construction program at his school are gay.  I'm like:  "Whoaattt!! that's exciting!!!"

Also last week, there were a few young electricians working at my workplace and they were very cute and sexy....  I was lucky enough to see them a lot because they were working right in front of my office!!  They really had nice butts!! Haha!!  I really hoped at least one of them could hit on me... but it didn't happen.

On another topic, I convinced my friends to throw a party this weekend!!   Saturday afternoon, we're gonna play a golf game on a video game and after that dinner and more partying.  That will be a great day!! 

"My world getting bigger"

Thanks to Brad for inspiring me today's post title.

Brad had a comment similar to that quote on my latest post, explaining that I can be more of me and that my friendships will get better with my sexual orientation revealed.  I think it's very true, it seems like a world of possibilities is opening to me.

The quote also explains two other things that happened to me in the last week.  But before, I want to share a discussion I had with Jess yesterday at work.  To put things in the context, since the return to work on Monday, everything was cool between her and me and it was as normal as ever with her boyfriend Stan.  I was expecting Stan to be a bit more reserved towards me, but he was not at all, he even seemed more at ease with me.  I ended up wondering if Jess had told him.  So yesterday I asked her:

Me: So, did you tell Stan?

Jess: You mean... about you?

Me: Yes

Jess: Yes

Me: Saturday night?

Jess: Yes

Me: How was it?

Jess: He was OK

Me: Did he react the way you thought he would ? (referring to when she had told me that he would probably say that he already knew I was gay)

Jess: Yes

Me: You guys are funny!

Jess: No you're the one who's funny!

I grimaced to her and she happily replied with one of her own grimace.  We smiled and I left.

So I mentionned my world was getting bigger, right?

Yesterday I finally went to the LGBT center discussion group.  If I wanted to go there, it was to meet new people and friends.  I think it's great what's going on with the blog, but I think its important that my world gets bigger in the "real world" too!  So I was really looking forward to it.  It ended up being a disappointing night. Apart from the animator and me, there was only another guy who didn't say much and three 17 year old girls who live in some kind of "youth house" because their parents can't take care of them.  I have nothing against them, but they were taking so much place (especially one of the girls) that I ended up learning more about the life in a youth house than discussing about gay topics...  I can't say I want to be friends with any of the other participants, so this is disappointing.  The next meeting is in two weeks.  I will go, hoping that there will be new people with whom I could become friends with.  But if ends up being as disappointing as yesterday, I don't think I'll give it a third try...

Luckily, my world did get bigger in another area.  Last Saturday, I joined a gay chat room for the first time.  I had actually never chatted before.  So in this chat room, there's the common room but we can also talk in private to other participants (I guess it's like that in every chat room, but it's new to me, so I'll explain it anyways ;) ) Also I don't think we can chat with a webcam on this chat room, but I don't care because I don't have a webcam and I just want to talk. I've been in the chat room every night since Saturday I think and I had some nice conversations with a few of the participants.  It's really fun to talk to other gay guys... it's not the same thing as talking to straight guys... I even got to show another guy that his life was not lost.  He told me that he was living a big lie and that he was too old to end it.  I said "What? How old are you?" He said 27.  I told him that I first came out at 29, so really, don't give up!!  I also told him what it meant to me to come out, because he was trying to make a point that his sexuality isn't anyone's business.  He also said that straights don't need to tell everyone is straight.  I said that I agreed it was not fair, but on the other end, the straights don't hide their orientation. So, why should we hide it when we're gay.  He was receptive to what I was telling him and he told me that he wouldn't forget that it's not lost for him.  I was quite happy to show him a brighter side of what life can be.  I hope the best for him.

On a lighter note, I did learn a few things on the chat room:

1- Canadians are hot

2- 30 year-olds are sexy

3- French is such a romantic language.

In consequence, I can now affirm that, as a french-speaking 30 year-old canadian guy, I'm the whole package!!  I didn't invent it so it has to be true :)

Also I found that the younger guys can be very easily impressed... by me.  Wait what??  Yeah, the younger guys on the chat room were really funny, being almost in adoration before me.  Of course, there's always some kind of mild flirt going on, so I think they were just trying to be nice with the older dude, but it was fun anyways.

My world is growing bigger with the chat room and I really appreciate all the positive things happening to me right now.  But, of course I want more!!  I want my world to grow much bigger!!!  It will happen!!