Monday, September 17, 2012
Tonight, I've been wanting to post something. I wanted to yet again give something to my readers. A few ideas came and go... they were not what I was looking for. I let my mind wander and my thoughts flow. Then I came to remember about some of the comments I've received on my posts.
There's some kind of tendancy going on. In many of your comments, you take some time to write that you wish me the best in my journey, that you like my writings, that you see a good guy in me, that you care about me in a very positive way. This is truly amazing. I was expecting some ponctual good words, but this is way beyond my expectations. Like I commented on an older post, I think that I'm too close to the trees to see the forest. I only consider myself as a lucid guy whot tries to be the best man possible, while trying to become the man he wants to be. That journey is also currently marked by my desire to be an out gay man in pursuit of love. That last sentence alone brings a lot of uncertainties in my life, as there is no step by step guide available in my local library. I have to go through these moments respecting my values, listening to my emotions and taking great care of other peoples emotions and reactions. That's probably the hardest part, because I really often think that nobody thinks like me. However, I know that it is not true because of all the support you've given me. You've also helped me to relax a bit about my coming out process. This past weekend I decided that I was not going to think about it and I had a great weekend.
I'm still somehow on my own, because it's my life and my destiny. However, I don't feel alone, thanks in great part to your support. I am truly touched by your support and, honestly, I am sometimes overwhelmed, as you guys and girls seem to see some stuff that I don't (that's disorienting!!). You're all really wise! But seriously, it gives me confidence that some day, the people around me will get me as much as you do.
In the end, I just want to say "THANK YOU!" I'm really lucky that you stopped on my blog and that you've come to appreciate me enough to give me some words of encouragement. As a sign of recognition, please appreciate these eye candies!