Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I had an interesting comment from SnowRider on one of my posts:
Well, there are two opposites ends: Find the right guy and wait to marry him before having sex with him; and fuck every guy's ass I meet. I'm nowhere near any of these ends. I'm floating somewhere in between them.
There are certainly things I have expressed on this blog that I dont feel the same anymore as when I wrote them. There are certainly other things that I have wrote that I haven't changed my mind about just yet.
Sometimes I really feel like a teenager in a man's body. I have so many things going through my mind at any time of the day concerning the things that are happening to me. I do share a lot of them with you, it gives you quite a good idea of what I'm living. But there are lots of things that don't make "the cut" !! I tell you that just to explain that I suppose this is what a teenager feels like when he begins to discover who he is, what he likes, what he wants etc... Except I'm not a teenager anymore!
I'm at a very interesting, confusing and sometimes scary place. About everything I am experiencing is new to me. I try to stay true to myself and one thing that is very important for me is to not play with other people's feelings. That explains often why I take things slowly with Flyman. It can be challenging since I am sometimes lost at see, so I try my best.
So, for now, my answer to SnowRider is: I will have fun with guy(s) before marrying (if I ever do). I'm not a Saint!! However I don't want to have random sex. There are certainly things that I am taking slower now than I will in a few months. But, I go at my rythm and thankfully, Flyman helps me along the way. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I try to live the present moment and to enjoy my journey. And I also allow myself to change my mind about various things, because in these new waters, I can't take anything for granted!