Friday, October 12, 2012
I've never counted the days before my anniversary, before the end of school, before Christmas... I have never really cared about my anniversaries, but I do like to celebrates someone else's birthday. I never know what to ask for gifts, I prefer to give than receive.
I guess there has never been any really meaningful moment in my own life that I wanted to celebrate.
Well, for weeks now I have been thinking of today. The friday after Thanksgiving. It actually happened on October 14th, but I lived the event as happening on the friday after Thanksgiving, so this is how I (mentally) circle the date on the calendar.
It was probably the most meaningful day of my life so far. It's the day when I decided to and actually did let my guard down, get rid of my shell. It's the day when I showed my true self for the first time (Read the story here if you have never read it).
I did mention a few months ago that looking back on past events, I was kinda desensitized to it. Well.... I can say today that realizing that a year ago, I was coming out to my parents, it makes me very emotional. It's unfortunate that so many people can't understand what it is to come out to their parents, because it also means that they don't understand what it is to look back on it. It's a beautiful thing to remember. It's also meaningful: it's the first time in my life that I care about an anniversary of mine.
I'm not sure if I'll do anything special to celebrate it, though. I'm not sure it's necessary. As I've already stated, coming out is a very personal process. So, I guess that celebrating it will also be a very personal moment.