Saturday, October 27, 2012
I want to reassure everyone by telling you that I know that I am not perfect, even if I think I'm not so far :)
Seriously, I am a humble person and sometimes I just have difficulty to accept many compliments, so I answer with humor. I really want to thank everyone who repeats again and again to me those beautiful things. It's beginning to sink in :)
There's one thing that's been bothering me about myself lately. It scares me a bit about my future with a lover. The thing is that I tend to rapidly have high hopes and expectations. I have these hopes and expectations in every aspect of my life, so I don't see why they wouldn't show up on the love side. The problem with high hopes and expectations is that when they are not fulfilled, I become stressed and I ask myself all sorts of stupid questions and I begin to doubt a lot of things in my life. That's not a good feeling and I hate it when I experience it.
So, how does it scare me about my future love life?? Well, I fear to hurt myself and my lover for no good reason if my expectations are not fulfilled. I don't want to have the feeling that I love him much more than he does about me, that I care more than he does about our relationship. Also, as I've demonstrated at the beginning of this post, sometimes it takes me a long time to let things sink in. So, maybe I will have all the signs to be reassured, but I won't let them sink in and it could be hurtful. I don't want that. Hopefully, by the time this happens, I will still have a lot of help from you to help me sort things out!!
I'll end this post by suggesting you to watch this clip of Muse. I knew many of the band's song, but I didn't know they were all made by the same band until a few weeks ago when I realized that I just loved all these songs made by Muse. I specifically chose this one because it fits with this post.
Muse - Starlight