Tuesday, February 5, 2013
One of the things that helps me go "slow" sex-wise is my fear of STD's.
I just can't imagine having a risky behaviour like some people I hear stories from. I have a black fear of getting sick and have the rest of my life ruined because of STD's. Safe sex is really important to me and I have to admit that I have always feared that dating would have me face that issue. I fear that if I want to play safe, some guys could get uninterested in me. But, it is not a risk I am willing to take.
Flyman has been tested a few weeks ago. His results are negative, but he has not received his HIV results yet. He has offered me a few blowjobs, but I have always turned the offer down. I'm actually afraid that since he has really sensible gums, there could be some bleeding in there and that I could get infected if ever he has HIV. (I have asked a nurse about it and am still waiting for her answer).
I'm really lucky that Flyman has never pushed me to do things I didn't want to. I haven't told him yet how much I fear STD's, apart from that moment when I told him that whoever he has sex with next, to please protect himself because his health is worth much more than a good fuck.