- someone who just wants to do it as soon as possible.
In both cases, it seems to be a really big "event".
Somehow, it really didn't seem that big to me... I really wonder to know how this is possible. That's coming from the same guy who took a long time before kissing the guy he was dating.... I've always known I was weird, but I think I have reached new summits!! haha!!
It is not something that I have anticipated or feared. I didn't even make scenarios of the way I wanted it to happen. I didn't even know which one I wanted to do first: top or bottom? But in the weeks leading to it, I did begin to wonder which I wanted to do first, as I felt it was going to happen. I guess I was a bit more intrigued about bottoming... I'm not really sure why I chose to bottom in the end. Maybe I figured that since I was the inexperienced one, I would let Flyman top me.
I know that I didn't have the strongest feelings for him. But, with every date, we would get closer physically and more intimate. Yes, I could have decided to wait for someone I did have feelings for to get "beamed up" for the first time (LOL I had to remind everyone of that expression!!). But I thought that doing it with A good guy would be enough.
When it was happening, I didn't really feel that something very important was happening. It was just the continuity of what we had been doing during our previous dates.
It's a bit weird... I don't know what to think about it!! Why was it so "unimportant" to me??
Anyways, like you know, it didn't last long and neither of us had time to have fun.... So somehow, it kinda doesn't count... but I did have a penis beamed up my butt... So I lost my V Card. But I feel like I still have it. But it's not as if it was super important to me!! Anyways, I still haven't put my penis in another guy's butt, so I'm still a virgin somehow !!
I don't know how my post "sounds" like, but I want to reassure you that I'm not desperate or anything, this whole thing makes me smile more than anything!!