Sunday, July 15, 2012
A missed opportunity, a hot day and a gay talk in the garden
No need to say I envy them
I'm feeling quite better than last thursday when I did my other post, even if I didn't come out uring the weekend. I could almost do it on Friday night. After I ended my day at the job, I went to the liquor store to buy some alcohol because I wanted to drink with my friends (it was another hot day and .... oh and I don't need excuses to drink haha!). So after that I went to my best friends Jack and Janice's home. Another firend of ours (Jessica) arrived and we began to drink. Than we had dinner and after that we resumed our drinking. At the end of the evening, Jessica had left and Jack noticed that I was not in a state to drive and I agreed. He offered me to sleep in his home for the night and I accepted. I can't say I was drunk, but I'm very careful about drinking and driving. So we were outside and it was a perfect temperature. I was staring at the night sky and I felt so well. I thought that it was a good moment to come out to my friends, or at least one of them. The thing is, I never got to be alone with one of them! Janice's father was there too and when he went inside to sleep, than it was their daughter who spent some time with me (she didn't understand why I was alone outside). I was hoping for her to go inside, so that when Jack would come outside (at this point I was sure Janice would not go back outside), I could have a talk with him. When Jack came outside, he told me that he was going to sleep because he was really tired and had a big day the following day. I hesitated to ask him to stay a bit... but his daughter was still there so in the end, I reluctantly got inside with them to go to sleep. It's sad that I couldn't make it that night because I felt so much at peace and I think it's easier to have deep conversations under a night sky.
I had hoped that on saturday morning I would find some time to talk to Jack and/or Janice, but it was really not the case. So I went back to my house to prepare for the pool party at my colleague's house. It was already really hot early in the morning so I couldn't wait to go there and be in the water.
The party was really cool, we were 7 adults and there were 4 kids between 2 and 5. I went in the pool 3 times (I can't remember the last time I did that) and had fun in and out of the pool with the kids, which is always cool. We had BBQ for dinner and it was succulent. The day ended with a fire and marshmallows and it was really cool. I really had a nice hot day. I wish there were more days like that :)