Thursday, July 12, 2012
When will I be over and done with it?
I'm talking about coming out. So far I've come out a total of 4 times, to a total of 5 persons. I want to be completely out sooner than later, but I also want to tell personnally to people who are close to me, in a certain order of priority. Maybe I make things more complicated than they should be. Maybe not. Coming out is a very personnal process and I need to do it this way. But it's hard some times to find a good moment (I'm not even looking for THE good moment, as that would really be too slow). I wanted to tell my 2 best friends (they're a couple) tonight. I was happy about it. But when I arrived at their home, they weren't there. So I prepared all day for nothing (not that I really prepared for it, but I thought about it a few times and that always saps some energy). It takes energy to come out and I would like to use my energy for something else, like finding a boyfriend.
So I wish to tell them tomorrow. It will be an important step, because the guy works with me and I don't want to make him keep the secret for too long before I come out at work. So I hope that things will happen fast after that and I think it will be a better situation to have everyone know instead of a few "privileged" ones.
On a happier note, I convinced one of my coworker to throw a pool party this weekend so we should have a lot of fun. Maybe if I get too drunk I will unwillingly (or not) share my secret...
Pool party song